Lifes Experiences

It's interesting the different things that life brings to us. My cousin sent me a poem that says:
God didn't promise
Days without pain
Laughter without sorrow
Or sun without rain
But he did promise
Strength for the day
Comfort for the tears
And light for the way.

Today is a day that he is comforting me. And helping me to find the strength to go on.

I love life! I love my three boys and my daughter and husband more than I can ever imagine loving someone. But I also love the three little babies that I have lost this year. I know that there is no doctrine on miscarriages. But I saw with my own eyes that they were real babies. I loved them from the minute I knew I was pregnant. This last one was the hardest, yet I am so glad that I experienced it. We were able to give him a name and a blessing. I know that may be weird for some people, but to me it was the neatest experience I've ever gone through. He was really a baby, and I was only 41/2 months pregnant. I gave birth to him and I got to hold him. He fit right into my hand. He was beautiful to me. We named him Beau Gregory Bean. He weighed 1.8 lbs. and was 6 inches long. The hospital staff was so amazingly nice. They held him as if he were alive. They put him in a little square of a blue blanket. I was able to hold his tiny hand and hold his tiny foot. He was beautiful. I didn't want to give him up. I wanted to hold him forever. I know that he was needed in heaven. I guess I'm selfish, but I wish I still had him. I can't wait for the day that I can see him, and raise him. I loved him so much. My children loved him. They talk about him all of the time. Someday I will see him again. As for now, I get to see my other beautiful children grow up, and they do so very fast. I wish they would stay small just a little bit longer!!

We had a good halloween this year. My kids got enough candy to last them through the year, although, it probably won't last through the day!! I will have to the few pictures I did get of my kids this year, when I put them on my computer. My battery is charging. I hope everyone had a good halloween this year! Now it's time to get my house ready for Christmas!!! I LOVE this time of year!

Ryan had a football game last Saturday and did so good!!! He made the first touchdown, but it wasn't counted because a flag was thrown because someone was holding. That's alright though, to me he made a touchdown. He is doing so good! He's not very big, but he sure makes up for it with his speed. I love the football season! It's fun to go to the games and watch the kids play. They have so much fun.

Right above me are the pictures of Girls Camp. I am finally posting them. Our wonderful girls and leaders that we had so much fun with. It rained on us the entire time. Our wood got all wet, so our wonderful priesthood got us more wood. We still were able to go on a hike, we went down a slide, floated down the river, went swimming in Jackson, played tons a games, sang lots of songs, our Bishopric dressed up as Super Heroes, as that was our theme. Nacho Libre, Captain Underpants, and a Sumo Nacho Libre.

The pictures at the very top is my family. My four brothers, one brother in law, and sister dressed up to give our good friend a Wish from the Make a Wish foundation. She qualified to make a wish and we gave her options, between going to the Kunz farm to pet a cow, going to Hawaii to learn how to Hula dance, or meeting Hannah Montana. We had a lot of fun helping her decide what her wish would be.

We had a fun family reunion. I will have to post more pictures later.

What a BEAUTIFUL DAY!!! I love the sunshine! It just makes me want to be outside ALL day long! I love planting things and watching them explode with flowers or watch my garden grow!!! I just love this time of year!

For Mothers Day, Greg didn't have any meetings, so all I wanted was to go right after church and take our family pictures. They turned out pretty good!!! I had a wonderful Mother's Day with my sweet family. We had a lot of fun together. I love my family!!! They all gave me wonderful pictures and coursages that my children made, I had to where 3 coursages that they made to church, and a necklace that Aspyn made for me. I looked like quite the LOVED MOTHER!!! I got lots of flowers from my kids and Ryan wrote what I meant to him on a piece of paper. I really do love my kids!

I never posted pictures of us when we went to Delta Utah to visit Greg's parents. We had a blast as we went to the sand dunes on Grandpa and Grandma's 4 wheelers! The kids loved the sand. As you can see, so did Ryan and Greg as they tried to jump off the top of the hills and do cartwheels off them. And loved riding on the 4wheelers. We had an easter egg hunt in their back yard, the kids swam in the their hot tub, and we went to topaz mountain trying to find some topaz. We came home with lots of sparkly rocks!! We really had a great time! Thanks Grandpa and Grandma....for a wonderful time!!!